Lets go through the text one step at the time and I will make comments
on the way from a psychiatrists perspective.


Course I

LRH: The purpose of this experiment is to re-establish the ambition,
willpower, desire to survive, the talent and confidence of myself.

UB: Hubbard finds himself in total despair. No strength, no will to
live, talentless and without self-esteem. This indicates a moderate to
severe depression. He seem honest and is trying to get a grip of
himself and life as a whole.

LRH: To accomplish the above the following fears must be removed

UB: Making a to do list. Structured mind.

LRH: Fear that I have written myself out by writing junk. I built
certain psychoses in myself while living with my former wife as a means
to protect my writing. I affirmed that my writing was hard work and
took much labor. This was a lie. I was always anxious about people's
opinion of me and was afraid I would bore them. This injected anxiety
and careless speed into my work. I must be convinced that I can write
skillfully and well, that I have no phobias about writing and no fears
of it. People criticized my work bitterly at times. I must be convinced
that such people were fools. I must be convinced that I can write far
better than ever before, that a million people at least would be happy
to see my stories. I must be convinced that I have succeeded in writing
and with ease will regain my popularity, which actually was not small.
I must also be convinced that I dictate stories to a dictaphone with

UB: He is constructing explanations and are trying to convince himself
of having control of his life and lifeevents up till present time . His
anxiety about other peoples opinions indicates that he at heart is a ,
perhaps overly sensitive individual. (The extreme of sensitivity is the
paranoic state). He is also anxious of being rejected - fear of losing
the primary love object - mother. He writes that anxiety has been
injected, eg by an outer force or spirit. Between the lines this
statement also says that he was flawless at start and that his present
state is the result of others doing him wrong. The rest is a list of
self suggestions he has to give himself in order to redress himself.

LRH: (b) My service record was not too glorious. I must be convinced
that I suffer no reaction from any minor disciplinary action, that all
such were minor. My service was honorable, my initiative and ability
high. I have nothing to fear from friends about my service. I can
forget such things as Admiral Braystead. Such people are unworthy of my

UB: Working hard with repression and denial of unpleasant memories.
His statements about the naval experiences makes me spontaneously
recall a great movie:

The Caine Mutiny (1954) With Humphrey Bogart

Plot Outline: When a US Naval captain shows signs of mental instability
that jeopardizes the ship, the first officer relieves him of command
and faces court martial for mutiny.

LRH: (c) I can have no doubts of my psychic powers. My magical ability
is high and clear. I earned my titles and command.

UB: Magical thinking is normal with children but can be pathological
when found in adults with obsessive compulsive disorder ,
schizophrenia or personality disorders of the schizotypal or schizoid

LRH: (d) Any distaste I may have for Jack Parsons originated in a
psychic experiment. Such distaste is foolish. He is my friend and

UB: Alienating himself again from unwanted earlier behaviour and

LRH: e) Sexual feeling has been depressed by several things amounting
to a major impasse. To cure ulcers of the stomach I was given
testosterone and stilbesterol. These reduced my libido to nothing.
While taking these drugs I fell in love with Sara. She can be most
exciting sexually to me. Because of drugs as above and a hangover from
my ex-wife Polly, I sometimes am unexcited by anything sexual. This
depresses me.

UB: Mourning his lost manhood and partly blaming his ex wife in the
process. Steroids enhances sexual drive and can cause ulceration in the
stomach, not the other way around as LRH thinks. His lack of sexual
excitement and emotional drive, despite the steroids, is propably the
early signs of anhedonia in the development of the schizophrenia he
undoubtedly developed later.

LRH: My wife left me while I was in a hospital with ulcers. Polly was
quite cruel. She was never a woman for me. She was under-sexed and had
bad sexual habits such as self-laceration done in private. She was no
mate for me and yet I retained much affection for her. It was a
terrible blow when she left me for I was ill and without prospects. I
know, by this, she actually wanted no more than my ability to support
her. This has had an effect of impotency upon me, has badly reduced my

UB: More blaming Polly. Rejection is a great fear with him . see above
on losing the primary love-object.

LRH: Polly was very bad for me sexually. Because of her coldness
physically, the falsity of her pretensions, I believed myself a near
eunuch between 1933 and 1936 or ? when I found I was attractive to
other women. I had many affairs. But my failure to please Polly made me
always pay so much attention to my momentary mate that I derived small
pleasure myself. This was an anxiety neurosis which cut down my natural

UB: He is in desperate need of an explanation to his earlier
shortcomings, not least in the sexual area, and it has to be an
explanation that he can live with and that can give his strength back.
His focus on the momentary mate on the expense of self pleasure nad
self worth, is likely the product of self obliteration, wich is
commenly seen with those having experienced emotional and psychological
neglect in early childhood.

LRH: In 1938-39 I met a girl in New York, Helen, who pleased me very
much physically. I loved her and she me. The affair would have lasted
had not Polly found out. Polly made things so miserable that I finally
detested her and became detested by Helen, who two-timed me on my
return to New York in 1941. This also reduced my libido. I have had
Helen since but no longer want her. She does not excite me and I do not
love her.

UB: Blaming again, unable to perform a selfcritical "rundown",eg
reflect of his personal contribution to the overall drama of
shortcomings - bad prognosis. Narcissistic struck, no doubt.

LRH: In 1942 - December 17th or thereabouts - while training in Miami,
Florida, I met a girl named Ginger who excited me. She was a very loose
person but pretended a great love for me. From her I received an
infection of gonnohorea (sp?). I was terrified by it, the consequences
of being discovered by my wife, the navy, my friends. I went to a
private doctor who treated me with sulfa-thiazole and so forth. I
thought I was cured but on a plane headed to Portland, Ore. I found I
was not. I took to dosing myself with sulfa in such quantities that I
was afraid I had affected my brain. My wife came to Portland. I took
what precautions I could. I think actually that the disease was utterly
cured very early. This fear further depressed my libido. My wife
disliked the act anyway, I believe, even after she had a hysterectomy
in 1938. (She was always terrified of childbirth but conceived despite
all precautions seven times in five years resulting in five abortions
and two children. I am quite fond of my children but my wife always
tried to convince me that I hated them.)

UB: Obsessed with his libido and sexual performance. Obviously lacking
in judgement and exhibiting questionable moral behaviour in
relationships with opposite sex. A mother trying to convince the father
that he hates his children? No way! Mothers critizing fathers of
emotional neglect towards the children? Yes ,quite common. This is
likely the case with LRH, who also shows strong signs of being
emotionally neglected himself.

LRH: I carried this fear of the disease to sea with me. I was
reprimanded in San Diego in mid-43 for firing on the Mexican coast and
was removed from command of my ship. This on top of having sunk two Jap
subs without credit, the way my crew lied for me at the Court of
Inquiry, the insults of the High Command, all combined to put me in the
hospital with ulcers.

UB: Firing on the Mexican coast? To what purpose? Could very well
indicate a short psychotic break with delusions and/or visual
hallucinations. Did he or did he not sink any Jap sub? If not , he is
still delusional. Not being credited for the alleged event and removed
from the ship, indicates the latter . One would expect the US navy to
have the facts and therefore the removal of LRH as a rational decision.
Accusing the crew of lying and the High Command of insults , must be
considered as evidence of his deteriorated mental state of paranoia.

LRH: I returned to sea as navigator of a large ship and was
subsequently selected for the Military Government School at Princeton
whither I went in 1944-45 for three months. During my Princeton sojourn
I was very tired and harrassed (sp?) and spent week-ends with a writer
friend in Philadelphia. He almost forced me to sleep with his wife.
Meanwhile I had a affair with a woman named Ferne. Somehow, perhaps
because I had constantly wet feet and no sleep at Princeton, I
contracted a staphloceus infection. I mistook it for gonnhorea and
until I arrived at Monterey, believed my old illness had returned. I
consulted a doctor there who reassured me. This affair again depressed
my libido. The staphloceus infection has not entirely vanished,
appearing as rheumatism which only small doses of stilbestrol will
remove. The hormone further reduces my libido and I am nearly impotent.

UB: His fatigue and perception of being harrassed in combination with
hypochondria and reduced libido certainly strenghtens the suggestion of
further development of his paranoic schizophrenia.

LRH: Sara, my sweetheart, is young, beautiful, desirable. We are very
gay companions. I please her physically until she weeps about any
separation. I want her always. But I am 13 years older than she. She is
heavily sexed. My libido is so low I hardly admire her naked.

I mean to be constant to her. I love her very much. But to live with
her I must regain my sexual powers, my stimulus.

I must cease to take hormones. I must rebuild my feeling of excitement
about things sexual.

I have a very bad masturbatory history. I was taught when I was 11 and,
despite guilt, fear of insanity, etc. etc. I persisted. At a physical
examination at a Y when I was about 13, the examiner and the people
with him called me out of the line because my testicles hung low and
cautioned me about what would happen if I kept on masturbating. This
"discovery" was a bad shock to me.

I had to be so silent about it that now when a bedspring squeaks I lose
all libido. I eventually found out I would not be insane, or injure
myself but the scars remain.

Polly pretended a hollow passion which disgusted me. But I am
lingeringly fond of her even so. I am also nostalgic about Helen.

UB: More evidence of his anhedonia - emotionally callousness.
Obsessive and compulsive about sexual matters including masturbation,
maybe due to his emotional disability. His constant obsessions of
himself, his shortcomings and disabilities,his lack of libido and
blaming this facts on others , and minimizing and reducing them to the
point of disgust , is in fact highly narcissistic , another trait
typically found in conjunction with schizophrenia.

UB: The list below should be read as a list of LRH=B4s testimony of his
disabilities and shortcomings, wich he with the help of selfhypnosis
- selfsuggestions- is trying to overcome and cure.
A temporary boost of selfconfidence by this method is likely , but a
cure for his schizophrenia is not. Continuation of selfhypnosis ,
especially with regards to unreal suggestions, would constitute a
serious risk of persistant lack of realitytesting - psychosis!
Suggestions under (u),(x) and (y1) is psychotic in nature.
Suggestions under (y),(b1) and (e1) indicates the presence of suicidal
ideations and impulses.

LRH: By eliminating certain fears by hypnosis, curing my rheumatism and
laying off hormones, I hope to restore my former libido. I must! By
hypnosis I must be convinced as follows:

(a) I can write. I need not think commercially about writing.

(b) My mind is still brilliant. My memory unaffected by drugs or

(c) That masturbation was no sin or crime and did not injure me. That
no sexual practice has ever dulled me.

(d) That things sexual thrill me. That I am now returned to the same
feelings I had at 16 about sex where excitement is concerned. That
naked women and pornography excite me greatly. That Sara excites me
greatly and gives me much pleasure.

(e) That I bear no physical aftermath of disease.

(f) That I do not need to have ulcers any more.

(g) That my eyes (which I used as an excuse to get out of school) are
perfect and do not pain me ever.

(h) That I love in Sara everything I loved in Polly or Helen and that
such love is now transferred to Sara.

(i) That I am fortunate in losing Polly and my parents, for they never
meant well by me.

(j) That I never need be jealous of Sara's past. That she loves me and
is utterly faithful. That she thrills me more than Helen ever did.

(k) That life is beautiful to me. That I want to live. That things
taste and smell and look and feel wonderful to me.

(l) That I wrote a great book in The One Command and that it removed
all my fears even until now, except that my chapters on the mind do not
affect my own mind. That I have will power and great mental control.
That I need not associate anything unless I wish.

(m) That I have only friendship for Jack Parsons.

(n) That I feel no wish for vengeance toward anyone. That I love people
and believe in honor and glory.

(o) That I believe in my gods and spiritual things.

(p) That nothing can halt my ambitions.

(q) That I need not believe the criticism of anyone. That vicious
criticism can be forgotten by me at will.

(r) That I tell the truth and must tell the truth. That all past errors
and lies are forgotten.

(s) That I have started a new, free life. That the arts and beauties
run strong in me and cannot be denied by anyone.

(t) That I am well and that there is no advantage in appearing ill.

(u) That my code is to be all things a "magus" must be, that I am those
things. That I burn high and bright and will last as a potent and
brilliant force until well after this century has run.

(v) That I am not credulous or absorbent of other people's opinions.

(w) That this hypnosis will not fade, but will increase in power as
time advances.

(x) That my magical work is powerful and effective.

(y) That nothing can tarnish my love of life, my hours, my love of
Sara. And I have the power of banishing anything which would seek to do
so and that all things will seem wonderful and exciting to me all the
rest of my days.

(y1) That the numbers 7, 25 and 16 are not unlucky or evil for me. That
no number is any different in its influence upon me than any other
number. That the 7th, 16th and 25th are not unlucky or unfortunate days
of the month for me. I have no bad connotations with these numbers.

(z) That I need not subscribe to any moral code of sex anywhere. That I
am constant to Sara. I have no terrors of sex or sexual conduct. Only
pleasure and beauty are contained in it. That I may please myself with
the act or be pleased with sexual things. That the sexual matters
taught me by Flavia do not apply. My chastity lies in loving Sara.

(a1) That I will not forget these things but will enjoin them with all
related ideas as more powerful than any other ideas in my head.

(b1) That all ideas to destroy myself are false, for I love life and I
am a free and exuberant spirit in it.

(c1) That I cannot associate any of my lacking libido with Sara. The
blame lies elsewhere. Sara has enormous powers to thrill me. Hormones
and fears, now gone, were at fault.

(d1) Sexually I am as I was at 16, without any of the fears, with all
of the powers, with all the knowledge I now possess turned to wonderful

(d1) That I see and hear Raon clearly.

(e1) That anything which impedes my zest for living is small and puny
and will dwindle before the power of these statements. That nothing in
me which is evil can have heard these statements and commands without

(f1) That I am not bad to look upon. That my posture is straight and
excellent. That Sara likes my looks.

(g1) That my endurance in any climate is wonderful and any "fact"
otherwise is completely false.

(h1) That I am not susceptible to colds.

(i1) That I believe in myself and am poised and dignified whenever I
wish to be.

(j1) That I am not worn out in any way and never will be. That life is
ever new, that I am strong.

(k1) That Sara is always beautiful to me.

(l1) That these words and commands are like fire and will sear
themselves into every corner of my being, making me happy and well and
confident forever!

Note Much of the above may seem cryptic but if paraphrased as rendered
will be enormously effective.

- - - - - - oooOOOooo - - - - -

UB: List below is the suggestions he used.

Course II.


You are asleep. You are not accountable for anything you say now. No
one will think any less of you. People want to help you.

In this one lesson you are going to learn several things. The first is
the use of your beautiful new Soundscriber.

The instrument is your aide and companion. It makes it possible for you
to write ten times the stories you did before.

You have no urge to talk about your navy life. You do not like to talk
of it. You never illustrate your point with bogus stories. It is not
necessary for you to lie to be amusing and witty.

UB: He obviously does not want to spill the beans about his navy
history. Also he has to give himself suggestions not to tell lies.


You like to have your intimate friends approve of and love you for what
you are. This desire to be loved does not amount to a psychosis, it is
simply there and you enjoy their love.
UB: He is aware of his psychotic symtoms but do not like to be.

LRH: You can sing beautifully. Your voice can imitate any singer. Your
tones are round and true. You have no superstitions about singing at
any time. Your oratory is magnificent. Your voice tones perfect, your
choice of words marvelous, your logic unassailable.

UB: This is just funny and pathetic. 

LRH:Your psychology is good. You worked to darken your own children.
This failure, with them, was only apparent. The evident lack of
effectiveness was "ordered." The same psychology works perfectly on
everyone else. You use it with great confidence.

Nothing can intervene between you and your Guardian. She cannot be
displaced because she is too powerful. She does not control you. She
advises you. You may or may not take the advice. You are an adept and
have a wonderful and brilliant mind of your own.

UB: Psychotic magical thinking. Brilliant is not what first comes to my

LRH:Everything great and beautiful that ever happened to you or that
you know is available to your conscious will to remember. You can only
forget by conscious will or at command of your own voice.

You recognize the evil or bad import of things that are evil and bad
for you but their evilness cannot affect you or penetrate through your
glowing and strong aura. You are light and you are good. You have the
Wisdom of all and never doubt your wisdom.

UB: Touching hybris.

LRH: You have magnificent power but you are humble and calm and patient
in that power. For you control all forces under you as you wish. The
strength of your Guardian aids you always and can never depart or be
repelled. Your faith in her and in God is unswerveable, blind, powerful
and you never, never doubt their good intent toward you. They work with
you. You help them exert their plans. They have faith unbounded in you.

UB: Trying to not be afraid of his psychotic symtoms.

LRH: You will never forget these incantations. They are holy and are
now become an integral part of your nature. You enter the greatest
phase yet of work and devotion and power and have perfect control
without further fear.

UB: Accepting the psychosis and trying to live with it. Involution of
auditive hallucinations to be an integrated part of his personality and
perception of self.

LRH: Men's chains fall from you. Your head is high. Your back is
straight. You can experience no evil or illness. You are wholly
protected. You cannot guide yourself wrong for you are guided as a
crown prince.

UB: More of the fear battling.

LRH: Material things are yours for the asking. Men are your slaves.
Elemental spirits are your slaves. You are power among powers, light in
the darkness, beauty in all.

UB: Rising to a Godlike state.

LRH: You are not sleepy or tired ever. You do not sleep unless you will
it consciously. Sleep to you is a deep trance. Nothing can touch you in
that trance because it would not dare. Your Guardian alone can talk to
you as you sleep but she may not hypnotize you. Only you can hypnotize

UB: More evident indications of being subjected to external powers and
forces. Psychotic in nature.

LRH: You never wonder about how you write, you never distrust your
ideas or ability. You merely write and write wonderfully well. You like
to copy your own material and work with it until it is perfect. But it
is usually perfect the first time.

The desires of other people have no hypnotic effect upon you. You are
considerate of their desires because you are powerful. But you need
never be dissuaded by their wishes about anything.

Nothing, no one opposes your writing. Everyone is anxious that you
write. You do not need certain conditions to write. You are so strong
you can write anywhere on anything at any time. You can carry on a wild
social life and still write one hundred thousand words a month or more.
Your brain is so fixed that you can write at any time, anywhere. The
mere beginning of writing is sufficient to put you in a happy mood, any
high mood. Writing does not tire you. You said writing was hard work
but that you knew was a lie. You know now it is easy, very easy.
Writing puts you into an ecstatic state of mind almost as high as
intercourse. You love to write. The Navy had no influence upon your
writing. The Navy never stopped you writing. On the 422 what you wrote
were not stories. You love to write. Your writing has a deep hypnotic
effect on people and they are always pleased with what you write.
Having a market is immaterial.

UB: Navy memberings disturb him again, as does his indolence.

LRH: You will make fortunes in writing. Any book you care to write now
will sell high and well. You can dictate books. Words flow from you in
a beautiful steady stream. Anything which goes through your fingers can
come through your mouth. A dictaphone fills you with a desire to talk.
You talk easily to a dictaphone and the copy is excellent. The copyist
has no effect upon your work. You don't care what she reads.

Your psychology is advanced and true and wonderful. It hypnotizes
people. It predicts their emotions, for you are their ruler.

You don't have to talk about all this. You know too well it is true.
You never have to argue, all you need to do is sit back with a calm,
kind smile and people will come to you with their opinions. You need
never talk to fill silences in a group. You are an arbiter, a kindly
one. You do not have to talk. But when you do talk you are amusing,
witty, so personable no one can resist your charm. If they do not
reply, it is because they are afraid of you.

Your health is wonderful. You need but 6 hours sleep. Your eyes are

People dislike cripples. You need never be a cripple. You have never
done anything for which you need feel guilty. You never need punish
yourself about anything. You are in wonderful glowing health. You never
have accidents because you are prudent and poised.

UB: Getting rid of the last pieces of humanity and crap like a normal

LRH: You will live to be 200 years old, both because you are calm and
because of modern discoveries to be made in your lifetime.

You will always look young. Your weight is 180 lbs. And you will attain
and hold that weight.

Your hair will always be its present color. It will be thick and
beautiful all your life. Hair will grow out to replace what you have

UB: Vanity , pure and simple.

LRH: Your body organs are in perfect harmony. Your Guardian keeps you
in celestial time. Your organs work well, all of them. You grow
stronger each day. No drug or medicine affects your mind more than a
few hours. You can consciously stop pain.

UB: Struggling with hypochondric ideas.

LRH: You have no doubts about God. You never speculate about him. You
are assured that whatever you do is right in his eyes. Your faith is so
strong you could move mountains. You have deep trust and faith in God
and have no fear of what he may do to you and your friends. He will
never punish you. Some day you will merge with him and become part of
the All when his bidding you have finished in these lives.

You never speak ill of another because you are too powerful and may
curse them. You love everyone. Even when you use force on people, you
cannot hate them. You have no hate or jealousy in you. You are not in
contest with anyone. God and your Guardian and your own power bring
destruction on those who would injure you. But you never speak of this
for you are kind. A sphere of light, invisible to others, surrounds you
as a protecting globe. All forces bounce away from you off this.

UB: LRH the allmighty! It is difficult not to feel sorry for the man.

LRH: You are not a coward. Fist fighting had no bearing on your
courage. You were ill when you were fought before. You did not
understand the rules. You can whip anyone now and have no physical fear
of hand to hand fighting. They who fought you before were knaves and
fools. You would be merciless to them now. Nothing can stand up to your
fighting now. You are strong and wonderful in combat. You never know
fear or defeat. You refrain from fighting because you are too powerful.

UB: Fighting cowardness and fear of physical harm inflicted by others.
A very scared little man indeed.

LRH: You are rich in wisdom. You are therefore dangerous beyond the
claws of tigers. You never need speak of your dangerousness. Everyone
knows you are and it scares them when you mention it. You are kind and
soft-spoken always.

UB: Huffing and puffing...

LRH: Your eyes are getting progressively better. They became bad when
you used them as an excuse to escape the naval academy. You have no
reason to keep them bad and now they can get well and they will become
eventually starting now as keen as an eagle's with clear whites and
green pupils. Sunlight does not affect them. Lack of sleep does not
affect them.

UB: What is this about his eyes? Poor vision? Visual hallucinations?

LRH: Your stomach trouble you used as an excuse to keep the Navy from
punishing you. You are free of the Navy. You have no further reason to
have a weak stomach. Your ulcers are all well and never bother you. You
can eat anything.

UB: Earlier he blamed the Navy and Polly for stomach ulcers.

LRH: Your hip is a pose. You have a sound hip. It never hurts. Your
shoulder never hurts.

Your foot was an alibi. The injury is no longer needed. It is well. You
have perfect and lovely feet.

Your sinus trouble is nothing. It is not dangerous. It will vanish. A
common cold amuses you. You are protected from further illness. Your
cat fever has vanished forever and will never return.

You do not have malaria. When you tell people you are ill it has no
effect upon your health. In the Veterans examination you will tell them
how sick you are. You will look sick when you take it. You will return
to health one hour after the examination and laugh at them.

UB: More hypochondric thoughts he wnats to get rid of.
The more often he mentions a specific symtom or problem the greater the
actual problem.

LRH: No matter what lies you may tell others they have no physical
effect on you of any kind. You never injure your health by saying it is
bad. You cannot lie to yourself. Disgust not sympathy is generated in
others by bad health. Injuries are not romantic. They are disgusting in
you. You are a child of God. You are perfect. Health is a passport to
friends. Women are not impressed by your injuries. Clear exuberant good
health is your passport to their hearts. Adventure heroes may sound
romantic when injured but it is really a bad comment on their
expertness. The truly great adventurer is so expert he is never injured
by anything. Dragging a wing is not romantic, it is silly. You will
always be in wonderful health and well-being.

UB: Vane and scared not to be accepted , especially by women. Trying to
fight back impulses of selfpity.

LRH: There is no veil between you and the world. You sense touch,
color, music, poetry much better than anyone else. You never mention
this superiority. But you show them the beauties of the world. You are
not old or worn. You are young and experience is fresh and exciting. It
will always be. Your brain is clear as a gong. No pressure sits on it
or blinds you. Sulfa never affected it. Your speech is perfect. You are
thrilled by music. You can engender any mood. You are an excellent
judge of painting and sculpture and are thrilled by it in any one of
its thousand moods.

UB: Here is the anhedonia again - emotionally incapacitated.

LRH: You can enter or leave any mood at will. You can engender any
mood. You can write in any mood at will and with great honesty.

You start your life anew. You need no excuses, no crutches. You need no
apologies about what you have done or been. Your approach to work is
wonderfully clear and fresh. No experience can daunt you. You can never
be disappointed or morose for you know life for what it is and
therefore are shielded against its suffering. You have suffered much
and you are deep in understanding. But now you enter upon a long, long
period of solemn joy.

What people think of you does not matter. You know when you are right.
Women especially love you and you fear no man.

UB: His vanity in conflict with his low selfesteem.

LRH: Testosterone blends easily with your own hormones. Your glands
already make plenty of needed testosterone and by adding to that store
you make yourself very thrilling and sexy. Testosterone increases your
sexual interest and activity. It makes erections easier and harder and
makes your own joy more intense. Stilbesterol in 5 mg doses makes you
thrill more to music and color and makes you kinder. You have no fear
of what any woman may think of your bed conduct. You know you are a
master. You know they will be thrilled. You can come many times without
weariness. The act does not reduce your vitality or brain power at all.
You can come several times and still write. Intercourse does not hurt
your chest or make you sore. Your arms are strong and do not ache in
the act. Your own pleasure is not dependent on the woman's. You are
interested only in your own sexual pleasure. If she gets any that is
all right but not vital. Many women are not capable of pleasure in sex
and anything adverse they say or do has no effect whatever upon your
pleasure. Their bodies thrill you. If they repel you, it merely means
they themselves are too frigid or prudish to be bothered with. They are
unimportant in bed except as they thrill you. Your sexual power is
magnificent and they know it. If they are afraid of it, that is their
loss. You are not affected by it.

UB: He must have been quite impotent , needing to reinforce suggestions
on this topic over and over and over again.

LRH: You have no fear if they conceive. What if they do? You do not
care. Pour it into them and let fate decide.

The slipperier they are the more you enjoy it because it means their
mucous is running madly with pleasure.

There is nothing wrong in the sex act. Nothing any woman may say can
change your opinion. You are a master. You are as sensitive and sexy as
Pan. Lord help women when you begin to fondle them. You are master of
their bodies, master of their souls as you may consciously wish. You
have no karma to pay for these acts. You cannot now accumulate karma
for you are a master adept. Your voice is low and compelling to them.
Singing to them, for you sing like a master, destroys their will to
resist. You obey the conventions, you commit no crimes because you need
not. You can be intelligently aware of their morals and the laws of the
land and fit your campaign expertly within them.

UB: Pulling further and furher away from fellow men and women and any
normal human interaction.

LRH: Jack is also an adept. You love and respect him as a friend. He
cannot take offense at what you do. You will not wrong him because you
love him.

The most thrilling thing in your life is your love and consciousness of
your Guardian. She materializes for you. You have no doubts of her. She
is real. She is always with you. You love her very much. You trust her.
You see and hear her. She is not your master. You have a mighty
spiritual will of your own. She is an advisor and as such is respected
by you. She is wise and worthy and never changes shape. Your faith in
her as in God is blind and unshaken ever.

UB: More evidence of visual and auditive hallucinations.

She is interested in you and amused by you. She does not criticize you.
She does not frown on your sexual acts but advises you on better game.

UB: The auditive hallucinations in schizophrenia are either commentary
or commanding in nature. Often negative and degrading in content and
commands of selfharm, suicide or hurting others. Hubbards "inner
voice" was obviously female.

LRH: That she is with you always does not mean that she sees you as
indecent ever. You cannot offend her. You cannot repel her. You are too
good. You respect her and you love her and appreciate her advice. You
are good always because you want her to feel good. This does not apply
to sex. She has never and will never forbid you pleasures. She will
never censure you. She is lovely and beautiful and radiant and part of
your life. You can see her consciously whenever you wish. You are never
startled by her because you are not afraid of her. You are partly in
her plane, she partly in yours as you wish to see her. She has copper
red hair, long braids, a lovely Venusian face, a white gown belted with
jade squares. She wears gold slippers. Thus you see her.

You can read with ease anything she cares to show you. You can talk
with her and audibly hear her voice above all others.

You and she are too powerful to permit any interference. You can work
alone whenever you wish because she protects you. You and she are
friends. You both have a higher master. She can teach you much. You
love her. But she does not own your will, cannot affect your will and
you are powerful enough to depend upon yourself. You do not consign
will to her, ever. She advises. You do not have to take the advice. She
cannot weaken your will. You have no fears of consequences if you fail
to heed her. You can also be right for you know more of time than she
does. She is wise and beautiful and powerful. Others may not see her,
and you need not look at her or talk to her when others are around for
they might not understand. You can talk to her "in your own mind" when
others are near.

UB: Trying to keep the distance and accepting his "inner" female
voice. (Auditive hallucination)

LRH: You need never be disappointed when material objects or people
fail to move at your unspoken order. You can often control them. Not
always. Leave this to your beloved Guardian.

Your vocabulary consists of all the words you ever heard or read. They
are at your conscious command always. Your authority over words is
absolute. You are a grand master of words and you can do with them as
you will. You know what they mean to others. You know how their
meanings and melodies affect others. Your vocabulary is under your
complete conscious dictatorship. You know what they mean. No other in
the world has a finer vocabulary. You can speak them just as easily as
you write them and in a beautiful style and formation.

UB: Failing motor control of vocabulary is a common finding in
schizophrenics . Speak becomes slurrish and unarticulated especially in
the end of sentences. This symtom is due to the disturbed cognition (
thoughts ) and to a phenomena called deshabituation. Deshabituation is
caused by an imbalance in dopamine neurons. ( What! There is a chemical

LRH: You can speak to a dictaphone using punctuation symbols, spoken.
You see before you the brilliant colored scene of your story and with
any mood you consciously wish, describe that scene in magnificent
prose. You have no inhibitions against fine writing. You know that is a
meaningless phrase. Overwriting, underwriting these are not true. You
pay no heed to these terms. You have no fears.

You speak and understand all the French, Spanish and Japanese you ever
studied and they remain wholly apart from each other and your English.

You cannot forget words. It is impossible. You have them at your
conscious command.

You can do automatic writing whenever you wish. You do not care what
comes out on the paper when your Guardian dictates. You can hear her
easily and when you want her to write or talk dictation you have only
to consciously will it and the result is written or spoken by yourself
without any intrusions of your own thought. It is entirely automatic.
It does not in the least affect or reduce your spiritual will. You may
or may not believe what she dictates. That is part of your conscious
will and judgment.

UB: See comments above on hallucinations.

LRH: Anything you were told about religion as a child you can forget or
recall. It does not affect your present mighty faith.

You are a calm and rational being with very fine judgment. You may
collect facts, you need not believe them save as they appear true to
you. You can remember an erroneous fact as an erroneous fact.

You need not believe anything you read. Other writers are often in
error and you have no great respect for their printed words. You can
appreciate their quality without regard to your own. They cannot change
your true self and thoughts. Their jeers in print and their criticisms
have no weight on you. You know what is true. You don't even have to
defend your beliefs. They are too powerful.

Your memory is marvelous and reliable. You can remember perfectly in
one reading or one speaking. Your brain capacity is infinite. You
cannot hold too much consciously in your brain. You could cram ten
billion new facts or scenes or impressions into your brain and remember
them all with ease. You have no mental limit on memory or learning. You
can remember a thing without accepting it as truth. You accept as truth
only those things which you yourself believe after you consciously
examine them. You accept all I say here as absolute fact however. You
will reverance and believe everything here, consciously and forever.
These words sink into your whole being. They remake your entire life.
They are your code, belief, your guiding star.

UB: Again, everything he needs to convince himself of with hypnotic
suggestions , is him testifying of his incapabilities.

LRH: You will know everything you ever knew in any life. You will feel
no guilt or lack in yourself about any of your experiences. You can
recall them all without pain. Your past was what it was. You cannot
change it. But you had the whole right to use or help or hurt people
and you are too powerful now to be more than amused by your folly.

You can tell all the romantic tales you wish. You will remember them,
you do remember them. But you know which ones were lies. You are so
logical you will tell nothing which cannot be believed. But you are
gallant and dashing and need tell no lies at all. You have enough real
experience to make anecdotes forever. Stick to your true adventures.
Tell nothing discreditable but tell them well. Or if you wish, as you
will, tell adventures which happened to others. People accept them
better. You can recall in detail tales of adventure from all you ever
heard or read. You remember easily. You can quote for company or a book
all the adventure poetry you ever read or heard. You can sing all the
songs you ever heard, even once, and sing them well. You have no fear
of forgetting or stumbling. You cannot forget stories, songs, tunes,
skills and at will can call them consciously to mind.

You can consciously banish any train of thought from your mind, any
time, any song. You can recall words, speeches, whole books verbatim at
will. You are not a victim of chance thoughts. You are in powerful and
wise conscious control of all your thinking. You are a master without
limits. Your brain has no limits, consciously, unconsciously or
psychically. You can perform any mental trick or stunt consciously of
which you have ever heard. You are in perfect poise, balance and
control of your brain.

You are punctual but never worry if you keep people waiting. You are a
master adept and do not exist to serve people. You are kind. But you
are not affected by the desires of others save out of the deep and
graceful courtesy which you know so well and use.

You are honest and proud of your honesty. You are too powerful to

You have no fears of not being first. Because another comes out with an
idea which you thought up is no cause for your sorrow. You are merely
proud to be able to serve without gain, for your gain is of the spirit.

Money will flood in upon you, for you are wise and able. You have no
phobias about the rich. The rich are only people. You need not be
offended or impressed by them. You can and will own large arms[?] of
your own. You are wiser than the rich. Your money will exist to serve
you. As you spend it, more will flood in for you will spend wisely if
well. You have no fears about money. You will always make it. You do
not care how much you have. Having money gives you a comfortable
feeling. You do not worry if you do not have it. You just make more.
You want to make and spent money. It is not a primary concern with you,
you do it with such ease and have such boundless energy.

You need never expose or betray any secret God or your Guardian wants
kept. You can be trusted with vast knowledge and never give it away or
use it with express authority. What you know is riches. When you give
away all you know, you are poor. You can give out exactly as much as
God desires people to know. You never try to make an impression with
what you know. You don't care what people think of your mind. So long
as you refrain from telling what you know, vast secrets can be
entrusted to you with safety. You will guard your secrets. You can be
trusted always by everyone.

Vida does not resemble your mother. She looks like a wood nymph. You
like her. You do not love her to desperation. You are not jealous of
her. She thrills you physically and you enjoy her.

Taking medicine to make you healthy sometimes makes you happier or
sadder but you need have no fears about being synthetic, or
experiencing synthetic reactions. Testosterone and stilbestrol makes
your reactions real enough.

Self pity and conceit are not wrong. Your mother was in error.

Masturbation does not injure or make insane. Your parents were in
error. Everyone masturbates.

You need never be clumsy in parting from people. You have poise and
part from them with ease and grace.

Colds are nothing. You are not afraid of them. You can defeat them with
ease. You can will yourself consciously to resist anything.

The Book

You are radiant like sunlight.

Your poetry memory is wonderful.

You can recall songs and poems which you have known before, line for
line, word for word, tune for tune. You can quote anything you have
read twice.

You can read music.

Criticism does not affect you emotionally.

You are a magnificent writer who has thrilled millions.

Nothing bars you from writing.

Fears do not restrain you in any way in writing.

You know you "convinced" yourself

That writing is hard work. You know now that this "hard work" is a lie.
Writing is easy to you and nothing interferes.

Ability to drop into a trace state at will.

Remember clearly what you read.

Eyes and ulcers improving.

Faith in power and its necessity.

Ability to please women and have women.

Faith in own judgment.

Ability to dictate.

Ability to write on mill.

Ability to plot cleanly.

Lack of necessity of following pulp pattern.

You have no inertia which keeps you home or inactive.

You did a fine job in the Navy. No one there is now "out to get you."
You are through with its Navy and will utterly forget any derogatory

You are psychic. You do not need to "press" to receive communication.
You can let "people" in any world talk to you while you are wide awake.
You can see them clearly. You have no doubts of any kind about them.
You are afraid of none of them but can cancel them out at will if they
are evil to you.

The voice of your holy Guardian is distinct from all the rest. It comes
to you loud and clear. You can see her with brilliant clarity when you

You can read futures for people with ease. You are not much interested
in your own. No enemy can stand against you.

You are always calm, always in perfect possession of your social
presence. Nothing discommodes you at all. Nothing embarrasses you.

Your speech is musical and lovely. Your words are well chosen and
beautifully rhythm'd. You never forget what you want to say. Nothing
can prevail against your logic and choice of words. You have no speech
or thought impediments.

You will forget all derogatory criticism you have ever received. You
cast it out. You know it is only a weapon used on you for others' gain.

Desires of others do not affect you except as an appeal to your
courtesy - and you are courteous and gentle.

Merely by concentrating upon them, a thing you do with ease, you can
change their minds and smooth whatever anger they may feel.

The lot of humanity does not outrage you. Its government is merely
amusing. You are a major adept and such considerations are far, far
beneath you. You are not cynical or bitter about people. You have no
jealousy in you of any kind for fellow craftsmen. You are not in
competition with them for your work is infinitely superior and will
sell quickly as you desire. Editorial desire does not affect you for
you can write whatever they publish with ease, and any length.

You understand all the workings of the minds of humans around you, for
you are a doctor of minds, bodies and influences.

You have no fears about working psychically for you are safe, always
safe, protected by your Guardian as in a mighty fortress.

You can recall at will all the plots and situations you ever thought
up. You can create new plots and characterize people clearly and
wonderfully. There is no rush about writing. It is immaterial to you if
people are or are not amused. You write cleverly and your writings
never fail to amuse.

The two women you knew - Helen the Comrade and Polly the Skipper were
not worth an instant of your time. You do not love them, they were not
worthy. You won over them.

The love of women is not necessary to your ego. You are above them. You
know well that many women are mad about you, that you satisfy them
perfectly. You will satisfy them easily. You do not care.

Testosterone makes you sexy. It makes things beautiful and arouses you.
But this is will. You can be aroused at will.

Naked bodies and sexy allusion stimulate you wonderfully.

You have forgotten the case histories of Havelock Ellis. They did not
surfeit you. You have forgotten them.

You do not masturbate. Masturbation cannot harm you in any way but you
would rather have women. Your penis and erotic centers are very
sensitive to women. You are not afraid that someone will catch you
masturbating. No one knows or ever will know. Such discovery would be
harmless. You do not masturbate. Only women thrill you and very deeply.

You do not have to be a clown or a wit to be thought grand. People
adore and respect you for your opinions and wisdom. You are always
kind, always graceful, always courteous.

You have no mental flaws which hinder you. You have nothing which
hinders you. Everything helps you. You are crown prince of your portion
of the universe. Everything does your bidding perfectly. All elementals
and other dimensional things obey you with eagerness. All things love
you and their love makes you strong. You are strong. You love with
great force all things and your will controls them. You may use force
and your will with utter impunity for all things obey.

You do not know anger. Your patience is infinite. You are calm. Your
patience never fails. Nothing can make you hate or be jealous or be
small. You have all the time in the Universe of which you are crown
prince. You waste none of it, but you do not fear for its passage. You
employ time well. You are not lazy for there is nothing, no single
thing in your universe to oppose you. You have no thoughts which oppose

It is indifferent to you whether your work is accepted. You do not care
if it sells. You are confident for it always has sold.

The anger artist like people feel does not affect you in any way. You
are always calm and patient. You understand they are weak and cannot
batter through your calm. You are not influenced by them or their

To survive you need only do these things - be patient, calm, beautiful.
Write what you yourself think is good and worthy, govern yourself as a
powerful force. No human being has authority over you. No human being's
opinion has weight with you.

You are not possessive. You are not jealous because you are too strong.
People are much afraid of what you think of them, what you may do to
them, therefore you must be kind and courteous to them.

You owe no debt for the kind things people do for you. This is your due
as an adept. But you are always gallant, kind and considerate to
people. You do not vary your own thoughts to be kind. Kindness need not
impoverish or discriminate you.

You are able to trance. No other human being can hypnotize you in any
way. You can believe or disbelieve whatever you read at will. You
cannot be hypnotized by any but yourself.

Lies are not necessary. You have no need of lies for you are brave and
can take any consequences.

You are courageous. You fear nothing. Your prudence results from
judgment, not emotions. You have no emotional fears.

Snakes are not dangerous to you. There are no snakes in the bottom of
your bed. Snakes are wise beings. They are your friends.

You love the sounds of wind. The wind will not get you ever. It will
drive your ships. The air is your friend and the wind its voice.

Darkness is a cloak you may don. Your guardian and your own courage
protect you utterly in darkness. You control anything you meet in
darkness for that is part of your universe.

You do not care how much work there is to do for you have all the time
there is and can work forcefully and with patience. You can work
whenever you please. Nothing obstructs you.

There was no danger for you from government or navy. You are too big to
be touched by their petty opinions and force. Your force and destiny is
infinite power.

You believe implicitly in God. You have no doubts of the All Powerful.
You believe your Guardian perfectly. You hear her certainly and

You are too strong, too big to be touched by mortal opinions.

You are tolerant towards your mother and Father. You loved them. You
have no respect for their opinions for you know much more. You are
always kind to them. Their good opinion of you is assured. Their good
opinion and praise mean nothing whatever to you. Only Flavia Julia and
then the All Powerful have opinions worth inclining toward. You have
always done right by your parents. You did your best. You have no
worries about it. Your mother's theories on psychology were wrong. They
do not now affect you.

The opinions of your aunts and uncles are worthless. You are kind to
them. They mean nothing to you.

Music and color are beautiful to you. You sense them delicately. They
affect you strongly.

You are expert at modeling, drawing, painting. Nothing hinders you from
painting magnificently. Mediums of art are your slaves. You have entire
confidence in them as servants. You are powerful in the arts. Nothing
opposes you. You create wonderful music. You do not care what people
think of your art.

Your penmanship is wonderful, beautiful. You control a pen like a great

You write wonderful poetry. Your guardian dictates it and she is all
wise. People gasp and thrill to your poetry. You handle all forms
superbly. You do not care what people think of your poetry. You have
always written the most magnificent verse known because of your

Your guardian can dictate stories, poems to you at will. You do not
oppose them. You accept and write them easily. You are not eager. You
cannot doubt.

All objects are your friends. You can ask from and receive past history
of any object. No part of that history affects you emotionally or
psychically. The past of objects cannot harm you.

You are in perfect harmony with the All Knowing. Your future does not
alarm you. You understand and cheerfully accept your future. You are
not afraid. You cannot feel fear. You are safe in the control over you
of God. He is master of destiny and what he does must be.

You are in control under God of the material objects and beings around

You cannot think a fact into actuality. You can will a fact into being
with ease. You are confident of your control over will. You have will
power. You can consciously use it. Accidental thoughts of incidents do
not create them.

Your book the One Commandment applied only to the material. It is true.
It freed you forever from the fears of the material world and gave you
material control over people. There is no material will.

The One Command applied but slightly to the spiritual world and other
planes. There is psychic will power, possessed by a very few. You
possess such will power and it is enormously strong and irresistible.
You work it consciously. Those things you consciously state that you
will come to be.

The criticism of the One Command which was given to material things was
not leveled at you. It was not worthy. It did not detract from the
value of the book. It was from small people. You gave it no heed. It
did not affect you.

There was one error in that book and you have psychically willed it
into nothing. It was the electronic theory of the workings of the human
mind. Human, material minds do work this way and you were right. Your
own mind does not work this way. You have great spiritual strength.
Your mind is not material. It does not react like any human mind.
Whatever is fed to your mind can be sorted out. You can forget at will.
Men's facts fed to you need not affect your thought if they are a part
of the lives and mores and morals of men. Your thought processes do not
warp on facts which are fed to you. You can receive sense messages and
remember them but you need not add them into your own thought

You use the minds of men. They do not use your mind or affect it in any
way. You have a sacred spiritual mind, too strong, too high to be
touched. Your league with Higher Beings, your mighty Guardian and the
All Powerful, renders you beyond all human criticism.

You can distinguish between your doubts and what is said to you. You
have no doubts because you have no fear. You are kind and considerate
to all because you are so powerful. You need never defend your motives
to anyone because your motives are right. You have never done wrong and
need never apologize to anyone. You never justify or explain your acts
because you are careful that these acts are good and kind.

You can be merciless when your will is crossed and you have the right
to be merciless.

You are eternal. You are satisfied to live within God. Human death is
not your death. You will never die. Your personal memory is not
important but you will retain it.

You recall all your past times on earth. You have and will live
forever. You are part of God. You are the crown prince of your small
section of the Universe.

You are just and kind. You are merciless to any who cross your rule but
they do not affect you emotionally. You have no fear of anyone for
everyone in your own Universe is under your dominion. You will never
tell them, never explain. They know.

You observe their rules of conduct outwardly. You do this because you
are kind. You never say why you do this, that you do this. You are kind
and love everything even when you force it to your will.

You have no inhibition about sexual intercourse. You respect how other
people feel about it but you are not bound by that respect. You conduct
yourself with great courtesy.


There is little question about LRH suffering from paranoic
schizophrenia at the time he wrote the above. Predominant symtoms are
auditive and likely visual hallucinations together with numbed emotions
, suicidal thoughts , extremely low selfworth, impotence , thought
disturbances and problems with articulation and memory. His fatigue and
indolence together with the anhedonia is the typical low energy , low
vigilance and numbed emotions found in the domaine of so called
negative symtoms in this disease . He is fighting a hard battle with
inner psychological conflicts, balancing between the depressed state
with suicidal thoughts and the Godlike, allmighty powerful
"chosen" one with special gifts and blessed with an inner
"Guardian". The Church of Scientology and its methods is merely the
reflection of this seriously sick mans inner world. Constantly on guard
against percieved critique and attacks from the hostile surrounding
environments. Obsessed with money , not only as a mean of survival but
as an instrument of power and evidence of success.

Ulf Brettstam
Senior psychiatrist

The organization clearly is schizophrenic and paranoid, and this
bizarre combination seems to be a reflection of its founder [L. Ron
Hubbard]. The evidence portrays a man who has been virtually a
pathological liar when it comes to his history, background and
achievements. The writings and documents in evidence additionally
reflect his egoism, greed, avarice, lust for power, and vindictiveness
and aggressiveness against persons perceived by him to be disloyal or

-- Judge Paul G. Breckenridge, Jr., 6/20/84 (Scientology v. Armstrong,

Compare the above with Hitler's once classified OSI psychiatric profile from 1943 on the page linked below.

Suggested further reading: Hubbard and the Occult