Title: Scientologists Anonymous - By "G"
Author: Joe Harrington <email@example.com> [link to memorial page]
Date: Sun, 09 Nov 1997 15:44:27 -0500
This powerful essay was submitted to FactNet in 1993, in response to FactNet's first mailing to former Scientologists. It is very moving and I hope those who have web sites about Scientology will find a place for it. Joe SCIENTOLOGISTS ANONYMOUS BY "G' We were taught that the individual was more important than the group. That the only thing that the group had in common was the unconscious mind. That we could attain to a higher spirituality by focusing on our own self-awareness and improvement of our own personal abilities. Yet we lived within the group, sacrificing ourselves, our health, our sanity, our ability to see what was really going on around us. We lived in constant fear of being condemned to a living hell for eternity. We learned to give up our individuality for the greatest good for the greatest number and lost ourselves in the group. We lived in constant terror that if we left the group we would be persecuted, labeled 'fair game' and harassed for the rest of our lives if we spoke up about the abuses or the group. We were taught that the world around us was failing apart. That we had the only tools to solve all the problems of the universe. That we could conquer the physical universe with these tools by being part of a dedicated group with a fixed glare that hammered home to all that we were supreme beings amongst humanity. All who were not with us were not worthy of our attention. If we did not follow 'Command Intention' we were threatened with imprisonment in the gulags of the 'Rehabilitation Project Force'. We developed an arrogant air of superiority with anyone who was not a part of our group. We agreed that those who did not think, act, operate, breath and speak like we did, were less than human. The idea that anyone not a part of the group were robots, degraded beings, druggies, su!ppressive persons, psychotics, potential trouble sources, squirrels, enemies, psyches, antagonists, WOC, s, homo saplens, aberated personalities, chaos merchants, tough cases, no case gain personalities, black propagandists, Dev-T artists, confused, treasonous, doubtful, lying, liable, non-existent, dangerous people. These were just some of the labels attached to those of us who did not comply with the political correctness of Scientology Organizations across the globe. And if we left without the permission of those who enforced the command channels of the organization we would be declared suppressire persons, labelled fair game' and open to attack by the upper management tentacles of the "Guardians office', later to be renamed the "office of special Affairs. We were taught that all men of whatever race, color or creed were created with equal rights, yet we were constantly interrogated about our beliefs, about our opinions, about our leanings politically, religiously, in our private spiritual lives, about our sexual lives. If our thoughts and beliefs conflicted with those of Scientology policies we were labeled criminals, ethics particles, counter-intentioned and other intentioned beings. We were escorted away from the "truth~ until we admitted our wrongs against the Church and wrote up our overts against the group. When we confessed our 'sins' against the (church, when we wrote up our crimes and High crimes, when we gave our most intimate personal secrets to our auditor, we were not told that our evil purposes, our lives, our fears, our innermost secrets were being culled from our ethics, preclear and personnel files. We did not know that knowledge was power and that those who controlled the Church secretly controlled our lives from afar in Ivory Towers, pronouncing judgments and issuing forth suppressive person declares at the slightest whim. We were made to feel safe in releasing the things which troubled us most in our lives, while all the while these very same things were being stored for future use against us in case we ever chose to leave or disagree with the established policy of the day. We were told that if we did not conform we would not he doing what is the greatest good for the greatest number. We were denied our rights to equal access to one man's version of the truth if we disagreed. And no matter how we disagreed we were always made wrong in our disagreements with the introversion technique called 'word clearing'. It was always we who did not understand the (church). It was never the (church that was wrong. It was always we who had to find our misunderstoods, our withholds, our own overts, our unethicall behavior, while behind our backs the top management of the (church was stealing our money, committing felonies in the name of religion and religious persecution, and making a had name for Scientology all over the planet. We were ingrained with the idea that one man developed the only road to truth, that there were no other pathways to God, that we were caught in a Labyrinth and that Scientology was the only way out. We were constantly implanted with the idea that Scientology was the last hope of mankind for spiritual freedom. That the lives of every man, woman and child on Earth depended on what we did here and now with and in Scientology. That no one else had any answers or the complete solution to the riddles of existence. When we first came upon the Road to Total Freedom we were advised that our sexuality had no place in religion, that our sexual preferences were not to he tampered with, that our sexual histories were not important. And as we got further and further along the 'Road to Truth', we were told what was right and wrong, what was acceptable social behavior and what was not. We were at first encouraged to have families, to he married, to create children because children were the future of the race. As we entered the highest 'aristocracy' of the Church as Sea Org members, we were convinced not to have children because they take us away from production, that children were a distraction to the expansion of Scientology and that anyone caught getting pregnant would be 'demoted' to outer Slobovia. At every turn we were separated from our loved ones. If a family member was concerned about our involvement with the Church we were told to 'handle them or disconnect'. If anyone we knew had ever communicated with anyone who expressed any anger, resentment or opposition to the ideas of Scientology we were labeled 'Potential Trouble Sources~. We were made responsible for what other people said about the Church even though they cautioned us against further involvement. We became potential bombs which would explode the myths of Scientology. We were promised wonderful living quarters, the finest that Scientology had to offer if we joined the aristocracy. Instead we were given herthing fit for pigs in buildings infested with cockroaches, rotting wood, crumling plaster, decrepid odorous buildings not fit for the bommeless flotsam and jetsam of society. And as we struggled to live in such squalor, we were made to improve our environment with limited resources while the upper management salted away the billions of dollars from our blood, sweat, tireless nights, and tears. When we complained of these living conditions for ourselves, for our children, we were reminded that improvement was on its way. That we only had to work harder, longer hours and earn more money for the group, but conditions did not improve. We who had the only technology to improve conditions in the world could not give our children decent living quarters. As we were told in the "scriptures' of the Church that the family unit was the single most important building block of society, we had to spend only one hour a day with our chgdren while tbey were shipped off to mini- concentration camps supervised by reckless, uncarin~ neglectful nannies under auspices of the 'Cadet Organization'. We were split up from our spouses by being shipped off on this mission or that training program. We gave up every personal liberty and moment to ourselves to handle the next 'Hill 10' or Condition One, or Flap, or 'Emergency' or imagined threat to the solvency of the Organization. Our personal solvency did not matter. As Executives in training we were indoctrinated into the belief that one had to sacrifice individuals for the good of the group. That once in a while a 'head would be put on a Pike' in order to maintain discipline and order. We were taught that the whole organization was far greater in importance than any single individual and those who did not comply with the Orgs wishes were to be disciplined with heavy ethics actions. And in another time and place, in another scripture, before we became hard core religious zealots, we were ingrained with the belief that nothing about ourselves was our responsibility, that all of our mistakes, our aberated behaviors, our lack of ability and talent was because we had a reactive mind. That the individual was the most important building block of society. That if we were to have a sane civilization we should create sane individuals. That the technology was there to create sane buman beings. We were promised abilities far beyond our 'wildest dreams'. We were told we would attain powers and talent as great as the gods themselves. immortality was just around the corner with the next auditing session, the next grade chart action, the next course, the next ethics handling, the next corrective qual action. And when we attained that absolute state of ' Clear' we had the 'cognition' that we created our own reactive minds by mocking it all up. If we became aware or this 'fact' we were considered to have all the promises of Dianetics and the Ideal state of an unabberated human mind. We did not consider that a reactive mind is completely a subjective reality. But we could not prove it ourselves. Instead it was proven to us through more writings, more hooks, questions like 'Have you lived before this life?'. If we did not conceive of past lives or wished to approach the subject from a different angle we were labeled squirrels, alter-isers, involved in other practices, not a part of the group, out ethics, not worthy of the teachings of Scientology. We were told that no man has a monopoly on the wisdom of the universe. That wisdom does no good sitting in moldy books on dust laden shelves. That wisdom is there to be shared and made available to the common man on the street and that Scientology was here to make the able more able. We were offered the 'truth' for a fee. At first it was a small token, a contribution of some sort, a donation of money, time, talent, whatever was capable of being offered was accepted. We were told our help was needed, that our contributions would not go unacknowledged. The door was open to all who reached for the 'truth'. Later, as prices were raised, the cost of books, packs, materials, auditing, and any semblance of truth was repackaged, remarketed, and redistributed, we began to red the burden of keeping up. Today no man has a monopoly on the wisdom of the universe as taught by the founder or Scientology. Instead it belongs to a cabal of top executives who control, manage, operate this wisdom and suck the parishioners dry of every nickel and dime they can. The set up dummy corporations and fronts to move assets and funds around the planet to 'protect' the Church from its victims of abuse, theft and price gouging. They hide our donations in offshore bank accounts while claiming poverty, pretending to be a Church all tbe while running each Organization like a Fortune 500 company. And the wisdom of the universe is copyrighted, trademarked, registered, packaged and sold to the unsuspecting citizenry of planet Earth through all manner of front organizations. Because we were able to pay we were sold a bill of goods. When we could no longer pay with our money, our time, our talents, when we had been raped of every dignity, we were no longer able and therefore Scientology could not help us. Scientology only helps the able become more able. If you did not become more able then you were labelled no case gain or suppressive. You became ostracised and not a part of Scientology. You would be taken care of later. Bile we were able to produce, able to donate our time. our talents, our ideas. we were encouraged, cajoled, caressed, manipulated with stat management. If we were upstat we were good. If we were too upstat we were shot down with etbks actions generated through rumors created by upper management. If we were downstat we were blamed, found as whos and whats and whys of organizational failures. We were -off loaded', thrown overboard, thrown in the lake, fitness boarded, corem-eyed, railroaded out. Our talents wasted, our energy sapped, our lives ruined, our minds caught in the grip of the most sophisticated methods of spiritual warfare ever invented for capturing the minds of humanity. An unlimited weapon designed on the surface to 'Clear the Planet'. A tool to control governments, businesses, to take over the field of mental healing, a weapon designed to destroy civilization while replacing it with the philosophy of one single man who claimed to have found the solutions to the riddles of the universe. A man who would have all humans think like he did, to see life from his sole viewpoint, who would write that any man has the right to think freely, only to establish an organization that would destroy anyone who disagreed with his philosophy. Who would offer a money back guarantee if his words were not true or his techniques did not work, but who would encourage his organization to spy, to attack, to villify and publicly destroy anyone who dared request a refund or say anything against Him or his Church. While deep in the bowels of the uppermost echelons of the Church hierarchy, the New World Order of Scientology was already planned, being executed and propagandized to an entire planet.
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